Now, I'm Crying

I can hold back tears of pain, sadness, and betrayal. I wait until the crisis is over. I cried and cried and cried after my daughter got out of the hospital, so thankful she lived. But shed very little, if any, during the process. I cried when I initially heard my brother died, then spent the time until after the funeral doing my grieving. I'm the eldest child, in birth and adopted family. I am a mother. I canNOT have a breakdown when everyone else is. So I wait. Wait until I'm safe to have one. This has many pitfalls. One, there area plenty of people (especially men, in my experience) who don't understand WHY you're crying NOW. Isn't it over? Although, the death of my brother didn't get the disbelief that I was having trouble later. Seems they understood a little better that grief takes a while.

But today, I am crying happy tears. Those are harder for me to fight. I'm so loved and blessed, and sometimes, in the middle of the heartache, it's easy to forget how much. Already, I have been asked for links, or told they are going to buy my book ASAP. But ASAP is next month. I understand money issues and am HONORED that people on a budget are buying my book. Honored. And that makes me tear up.

But, reading the comments that have started to roll in, and the response (ALREADY!) to my guest blog post, well, my cup runneth over! Thank you to all who have made and continue to make this book release awesome!!

Now, go comment and share the love on edittorrent and on the interview blog, loveromanceandmore, (sorry the link didn't work so well yesterday :( but it's fixed on yesterday's blog and here's another go) even if you're buying or have bought it. If you win, you can share it with a friend :) I'll send it where you tell me!

Thank you all my peeps and twitterai!

Day 5.

I almost forgot to post this! Day five did not go quite as well as planned, so I incorporated the writing I've done on many projects today. I realized that I was hurting myself by spreading my words so thin. So, after the end, I am keeping track of other things I write, as of yesterday.

It's more to help my morale than anything. I am also querying and editing on two other books as I undertake this nano project. Today, I passed over 3k on other projects and decided I needed to track it better.

Start totals: 10865
Day end: 12230
Total words written on projects: 16772

You can see why I needed to start tracking it together. So, if I remember, I will be posting these three totals from now on.

In other news, I guest blogged on the Peevish Penman. It's great and re Nano. I love the linked post. After all, I'm married to a Native... LOL Go read. I'll post address tomorrow. However, I've had two hours of sleep and the baby has woken up after only being down an hour!!!!


TTFN wish me well tonight.